Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Cutting Down the Stockpile

I'm a stockpiler. Sales are dangerous, because I'll just stock up. Sure, I do mostly do it with items that we tend to use: shampoo, soap, canned and dry goods, wrapping paper. But...there's always a but, isn't there?

But, I have a small house. I also have trouble letting go. That's a bad combination. The fact is, I don't really save that much money by stockpiling. As you saw with my pantry, all stockpiling got me there was an extra donation to the city compost fund. I have thus been working really hard to avoid building up a surplus.

It's ironic, because I love love love clean open spaces. When the kitchen counters are clear and freshly wiped down, man, what a feeling of peace that invokes. I love an almost empty fridge. Part of that I believe is linked to my clutter disorder. I have so many things out because if I tuck them away, they'll get forgotten. I need to have visuals of everything to keep it in focus. When, say, the fridge is packed, it's overwhelming--I can't see everything. When it's less full, I feel calmer, more in control.

It's very hard to balance the need and desire for open space with the urge to keep, collect and accumulate. That's why I write here, in hopes of finding that balance, finding a way to simply be in the manner that I know leads to more peace and happiness.

1 comment:

wealthy_1 said...

I love clean open spaces too. I feel better when the dishes are washed and put away, the kitchen counter is clean. I too feel a sense of peace come over me. I don't like clutter, but I seem to have it. I keep dreaming of a day when I'm debt free and I can hire someone to come in every week and keep my space clear and clean.